love and hatred

[wachtmuziek]

i still love them so much and i would do everything and anything for them . i would walk five miles just to talk to them . but i hate them . i hate the way they treat me . i hate it . all of it . yet i still think of them constantly , create scenarios with them , and look at their pictures . i feel overwhelmed with guilt for my feelings . i hope these stop soon but they havent for awhile

love is a complex and fragile thing . i feel bound to them with an unbreakable rope . hopefully they break it . until then , i am a dog on a leash